Smidgens
They swirl above me, swashes of crows, in a chaos of dashes. They cackle, arguing amongst themselves, bickering with the sky.
These large murders are new. I haven’t seen them like this, as if they’re scolding me. For, I think they follow me. I know you think they follow you too. I would ask you to look up. But who am I to ask?
I ask them if they’re trying to speak to me. Of course, because I’m self-absorbed, I answer for them, “Yes, I’ve made mistakes. Some of them large enough to follow me around for the rest of my life.”
Then, I realize, it’s my ability to communicate that turns them into metaphors. They’re my mistakes. They’re yours too. They are representations of me and you. No wonder their caws fill the air.
And that soothes me, but in a disturbing way. I can understand why it might make you feel uncomfortable. They fly as if they’re in love with tension.
As a child, I believed their eyes saw everything and they shared every sight they saw. They’ve seen everything. Once you’ve seen everything, you can’t believe anything. That’s why there’s so many of them.
The air is thick with eyes. Theirs, ours. Have I lost you yet? It’s ok. Disconnecting is a natural reaction. Perhaps, a survival mechanism. I reach for my phone to take a photo of them. You must see this, even though you’ve already seen it. For you’ve seen everything. I don’t care whether you believe. Let me show you again.
There’s not enough space for them to land. I feel sorry for us. The trees are lower than all the buildings. We’ve built it like that.
We stay inside. Our mistakes can belong to someone else. We don’t want to see everything. We don’t want to share anything. We just want to believe.
I read your reflection on crows again and appreciate it anew, especially the idea that the crows watch us, following us around like our mistakes.
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This is simply so well written and indeed I too know crows.
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I believe you have, so has everyone. I is never just me.
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I too, have heard the crows.
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Yes, I have to admit, there was a slight “disconnection”. But I like how you had ended this post. Quite deep writing, it is.
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Nothing “mere” about it. Thanks.
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Birds are often the messengers of our thoughts. But they can also be used to inform us of so much more. In most Indigenous cultures birds are often seen as conduits to the other side and are respected and honored in such. The crow being one of great significance in many Native American Indian cultures. But I also know some people who have crows as their spiritual guides and often experience more interesting interactions with these creatures than others. Perhaps your mere meetings are more connected than they seem. Beautiful writing and great food for thought. Many blessings to you.
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I like that you’ve metaphorized crows 🙂
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Wow. Blown away. Thank you for sharing this.
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Dang 😳 this was deep! 💯 👍🏼 😂
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Beautiful
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This line gave me chills, “Then, I realize, it’s my ability to communicate that turns them into metaphors. They’re my mistakes. They’re yours too. They are representations of me and you. No wonder their caws fill the air.”
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Thanks Phil!
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Surprised…displaced…found…profound.
Definitely different Elan. Appreciate you scribbling down those thoughts, and bringing your audience in with you.
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Wow, twice.
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Elan – that’s proper corvid – they are beautiful – as your mind is
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wow very powerful 🙂
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Thoughtful, all of your posts. Happy to have found your blog.
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Perhaps, it’s not a mystery, but a means to arrive at a realization.
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A bit eerie to come to the realization that someone-thing else might see/understand the mystery in you that you yourself cannot. Crows embody that well
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What have we come to, how true how sad, humans dont want to coexist, beautifully worded thought.
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Lovely.
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This Is Amazing! So Amazing!!
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I love the noise of crows as they bicker and caw. And you really have captured an amazing mood. Love it.
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Whenever I hear crows going at each other, and I say it that way because their conversations always seem so passionate, I always feel left out. I often yell up to them, “What are you saying to each other?”
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What a perspective! So love this!! ♥
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Wow! 💛💜💙💚❤
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Beautifully written. I enjoyed tagging along on your journey.
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Crows are mysterious creatures. I had no idea how many people are in touch with them. Wonderful conversation in your poetry.
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Interesting. Here in PDX, there are swarming murders of crows that number around 100 or more. I am witnessing this more and more, in the city center, suburbs, and city parks. They are very adept at city scrounging. And when they gather in these numbers, they love to caw it up. I’ve watched people grab their phones to take a picture at this oddity of crow-topia. It’s quite beautiful and eerie.
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Funny I should find your post today. For the first time that I remember there were 3 or 4 crows outside my window in the tree and they seemed to be vying for something. They swooped on each other as they each landed on a branch. There may be babies but I can’t see that high. They were only there for about 3 or 4 minutes, making a lot of noise. Then they were gone. Weird.
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So good
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This brought me to tears.
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Such Beautiful Tragedies of Life and Human Consumption. 😎🥀
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“They fly as if they’re in love with tension”….. great line
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It’s OK. My name has been rearranged before.. Take Care!
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I am sorry that writing your name was intercepted by autocorrect, Elan.
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Cool picture and great reflection for the beginning of a new year. Happy New Year, Ed!
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I love the imagery!!
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Knowing crows and ravens very well, I was in tune with your prosaic poem much longer than you thought possible. They see indeed everything and remember everything. They keep an eye on you, even though you think they are not looking. They tolerate you at a certain distance, but raise your camera to capture them and they are gone. Thank you for your insightful poem not just about crows or ravens, Elan!
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I love your imagery and use of metaphor here!
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Thought provoking! These witnesses urge our evolution, unheeded, themselves a distraction.
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You know, I am sure you have heard of the norse mythology of Huggin and Munnin? I have a particular take on its meaning. But reading your poem, it expands my understanding of it. Thank you so much! It was not only impactful, but it has provoked a change within me, in perspective. 👍✌️
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oh I love crows… I love this!
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Artistic and poetic at times. Wise choice of words. I like the way you are breaking the fourth wall and dragging the reader in the story. Bravo Elan. 😀
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Oh wow! Just amazing
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